i thought id never be saying this but i hate weekends. they are always the fucken same. i dread coming to them because my mind seems to take over them. im about to finish a wine bottle to myself. i always know what i want to write about but once i open this shit the words never seem to come outt.
Gloomy weather always fucks me up. I can’t stand this weather bc I want be in bed all day and be sad. I woke up sad and went on with my day. I didn’t even pay attention in class I really wanted the day to end. I did get free pizza and snacks tho
its always the sounds of music that brings me to my laptop to try to write whats on my mind. Nothing interesting but more like a new beginning. im so calm right now it scares me. or maybe its the future that lays ahead that is scary. everything is finally falling into place and all the things i have been wanting to achieve is coming along. i’ll be graduating soon and hopefully go to cuba and teach in asia. i did not plan this, everything just got my attention. with all this spare time i have been able to focus on myself and my life. its incredible what i have been able to get done. its amazing.
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